wednesday was one of those days. when i don't get enough rest my world comes crashing down. i wanted to say screw this whole competition, quit, and eat an entire papa johns pizza. :evil: i want to eat an entire pizza every day, but that day i threatened myself out loud. it just got worse and worse as the day went on. i worked out with my trainer that morning, and i somehow hit the gym in the evening for round two.

i took a pic just so i could remember this very day and my mood at the time. i can laugh at it now, but i'm pretty positive i'll feel like this again or worse in the next few weeks as my journey to the stage draws near. and come on, a journey wouldn't be a journey if it didn't have a mixture of good, bad, high, and low days.

keep. pressing. forward.

that was prolly my worst workout of this entire journey though. i could barely get my heart rate up to my fat burning zone, and i literally struggled to keep it there, which is always relatively easy. after my last meal that night, THANKFULLY Chiso calmed down enough to go to sleep early with me even though he took a late nap.

Thursday was a new day. a better day. a high carb day. i DID get some good rest the night before and felt tons better, mentally and physically.

Chiso wasn't the only one enjoying fresh fruit that day :)

this is just some of his meal... sweet potatoes, avocado, and his fav, strawberries.

i got in some posing practice that night after my cardio.

POW, stick that hip out there!

i can be silly/goofy/flirty, but being serious/sexy/flirty WITHOUT laughing and feeling like an idiot is the tough part. how i will ever manage to sell it and make it believable on stage is beyond me, but i have 3 weeks to figure it out.

i feel wack taking these pics of myself but who do you think i am, june ambrose!? i need a picture snapping assistant. sometimes.

this will be my final pose before exiting the stage. :shock: kidding.

i didn't even think to bring my show suit with me- my coach said i should be practicing in it or at least less clothing from here on out though. she's absolutely right cause i could not see my body the way i needed to.

some days i feel way too skinny, some days i feel like i could maintain this weight. either way, Sonny reminded me that if i do fall off the wagon after this competition, i now have the tools and the knowledge to get my body back where i want it to be. well, what could i say after that lol?

i made more banana pancakes this morning cause they make me happy. and i need all the happiness i can get!!!!

i think i have made/eaten them for the past week and i can't stop. until i can add more crazy ingredients to my batter, i'll have them just like this up until the show. so YES, more pics of pancakes are coming, you've been warned.

have you made these pancakes yet!? what did you put in yours?

*****HAPPY FRIDAY*****

i picked up my show shoes friday during my lunch hour and had my first encounter with Cindie's Lingerie.

always seen it, never been inside. :shock:

taking pics from my truck, LOL

i found'em. however, the only pair left in my size had clearly been worn and damaged. there are no refunds or exchanges, so i wanted and expected a brand new pair! i was sent to another location to pick up the shoe and long story short, i was given the platform version of what i needed and didn't realize this until i got to camp:( that was SO my bad for not checking in the box first. i couldn't understand how or why my feet suddenly stopped working. i could barely make a turn without toppling over and i was pretty embarrassed. well, this has since been corrected- i went back to Cindie's after camp and got the right pair. i have been walking and posing all around my house in these things to make up for lost time!! practice, practice, practice.

immediately before camp saturday morning, i got my workout in with Travis, my trainer. so, i had to go two more hours on my feet after going to war with him and the weights.

getting in some much needed ab work. stability balls are GREAT for your core.

it's over. finally.

i brought my breakfast with me of course and snuck it in right before we started. you already know what it is!!

this is the woman right here- Christine Anderson, my posing coach. here she is introducing herself at the beginning of camp.

i met some excellent, down to earth former and future participants.

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i am definitely in good hands. Christine's work speaks for itself and she possesses such a sweet, humble spirit. she has had amazing success in this industry and i'm soaking up all the info i can from her. Christine's husband below, Charles (l), is a retired competitor with several trophies under his belt as well. what a team!

i met several ladies competing for the first time and we excitedly exchanged numbers to keep in contact during the coming weeks and beyond. i also met JC Shivers- he shared with me how stepping onto his first stage just last May and winning several consecutive shows since then has completely changed his life.